How I wished I had a elder brother. I want one. He could take care of me. He could share why does boys do stuffs like that. He could be there whenever I need his shoulder. Why didn't my parents gave birth to a guy first? Then, me.
My friends always complained to me about their siblings. But I feel so envious of them. Every night, they can talk to someone before they sleep. They could share their feelings with each other. Although everyone's brother isn't the same, but I want to experience the life with a sibling. It's so boring everyday.
In the morning, I was busy digging my ear. My left ear was numb. I couldn't hear anything. Mum checked if there were ear wax. There wasn't any. I kept complaining, "I can't heeeeear." Only my right ear could. And that was really irritating because I'm not used to it.
I still put on my headphones and went off for school. The volume wasn't as loud as last time. I had to blast them. But, looking at the people around me, erm, no way.
By the way, my bangs made me looked ugly. I'm gonna pin up my hair again. Until it grows long then I cut side bangs MYSELF. Well, maybe. Because last time I ruined my hair when I tried to shorten my bangs. Well, I want her bangs:
Okay. What's with the razor. I want it too. A note for myself: x .
There were some questions in the paper which were really hard... I didn't do one question, that was the only question I was busily solving. People around me could hear the pencil scribblings that were really loud. The time's up. I can't solve it.
I still go around finding you. I still go around, near your class, to see you. Today, we walked pass each other. You saw me, and then looked away. I looked away too. We didn't greet each other. For some reasons, my heart suddenly felt pain.
I just got the feeling that you still hate me, and I'm guilty.